ONLY a week from now...
I think everyday someone or some PEOPLE ask me "are you NERVOUS?" Always my answer is no not at all really! Because in all honesty I am not nervous about going to Africa. I'm a little concerned about getting schitzo worms or being bodily invaded my a mango fly, but leaving for Africa and living there, no that doesn't bring worry to my heart... Well at least it hadn't LOL.
Allow me to explain.
I think it just hit me today that WHOA in Only a week from today, I'm REALLY going to be away from home and family and friends. And no I'm not worried about the away part. I think my concern lies in the memory part. You see I will hold on to the memories of people and I think people will remember me as I was before I left. But what about when I get back and I'm kind of different and they are kind of different too? What happens then? I mean of course we all go on with life but I really like my group of friends right now. They are as close as family! And I especially have concern for my BEST FRIEND! WHat is she doesn't want to be best friends anymore when I get back???? OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!! AND WHAT IF AL MY FRIEND?SISTERS ARE GONE?????????? WHAT IF EVERYONE IS MARRIED????? WHAT IF CALIFORNIA SEPARATES FROM THE STATES???? WHAT IF MY PRESIDENT IS BLACK????? Oh... hold on he already is! Big ups to BARACK OBAMA!!!! LOL . But honestly I think these nerves are normal for where I am now and where I am about to go.
Ok so the reality is, I'm quite glad to have this blog to vent the things that are caught up in my mind LOL. I know everyone will change and that a good thing really. Change is necessary and inevitable. NOw that I have gotten that small rant of nerves out let me tell you how excited I am about this journey!
I am so thrilled to See what happens when I hold on to my dreams! When I came to the wonderful AGGIE LAND ( AGGIE PRIDE) I learned so much about myself and my people and how we are all so different and just a multitude of things! I am so glad I attended North Carolina AGRICULTURAL AND TECHNICAL STATE UNIVERSITY! Its really changed my life in a beautiful way. And now I have the honor of being able to find out more about people of my color. NOW yes they are my color but I am so ready to go beyond skin deep issues. I am so excited to work with the girls in the GEE sector and meet all the volunteers. Even if I only REALLY inspire one girl I feel like this is not in vain. But honestly I'd really like to inspire many more!
EVERY TIME I just stop and think about the fact that I am actually living my dreams a part of me cant believe it while the other part of me is like I knew you could do it! Its beautiful to me that dreams really can come true if you do your part! Its like Dreams are the inspiration but its up to you to bring it to fruition. And that's what I am doing! So from now on I plan on REALLY living out my dreams! (the good ones LOL). SO I guess now the nerves are gone. But the jitters are another story LOL . At least they are jitters of happiness and excitement and giddiness beyond belief!
So for now I will sit and soak up some last minute AC and study some more FRENCH (40 hours due soon) and get ready for ONE of the adventures of my life! Because this isn't the end its only the beginning!
Devin.
P.S. EVERYONE! STOP ACTING LIKE I'M NOT EVER COMING BACK! I WILL ! I'm only going to be gone about 2.5 years! So you WILL see me again. Like I said...this is only the beginning. I haven't even met my husband or had any babies yet... There's so much more to GO LOL! I SHALL RETURN!!!!!!
Ciao Baby!
